The 31 year old model, who is married to famous musician – John Legend – revealed that she had been experiencing symptoms of postpartum depression for months after the birth of her daughter in April 2016, but had no idea what the root of her issues was.
Here is an excerpt of what she penned down in an emotional essay for Glamour Magazine.
“I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy. What basically everyone around me — but me — knew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression,” she wrote. “How can I feel this way when everything is so great? I’ve had a hard time coming to terms with that, and I hesitated to even talk about this, as everything becomes such a ‘thing.’”
“Before the holidays I went to my [general practitioner for a physical. John sat next to me. I looked at my doctor, and my eyes welled up because I was so tired of being in pain. Of sleeping on the couch. Of waking up throughout the night. Of throwing up. Of taking things out on the wrong people. Of not enjoying life. Of not seeing my friends. Of not having the energy to take my baby for a stroll,” the Cravings author continued. “My doctor pulled out a book and started listing symptoms. And I was like, ‘Yep, yep, yep.’ I got my diagnosis: postpartum depression and anxiety. (The anxiety explains some of my physical symptoms.)”
“I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone. I also don’t want to pretend like I know everything about postpartum depression, because it can be different for everybody,” she wrote. “But one thing I do know is that — for me — just merely being open about it helps. This has become my open letter.”
While it was difficult to admit, the mother of one is hopeful that her revelation will help other women with similar issues.